so I am working hard on trying to lose weight, but once again it is not working. I really wish that I had a new idea of what I can do, but alas I do. I am beginning to think that it is an impossible task.

Pass it on!

I got this off of one of my friends blogs and I love free stuff so if you do...... I thought it would be kind of fun to do. The first five people to respond to this post will get something made by me! My choice, for you. This offer does have some restrictions and limitations.
1. I make no guarantees that you will like what I make!
2. What I create will be just for you.
3. It'll will be done this year (might take a while)
4. You have no clue what it is going to be. It maybe a story. I may draw or paint something. I may bake you something and mail it to you. Who knows. Not you, that's for sure!
5. I reserve the tight to do something extremely strange.

The catch? You must repost this on your blog and offer the same to the first five people who do the same. The first five people who do so and leave a comment telling me they did win a FAB-U-LOUS homemade gift by me! I know that you all want to join so hurry fast, remember it is only the first five people to respond and then put it on your blog, if you dont' put it on your blog then you don't count!! :) Oh and be sure to post a picture of what you win when you get it! Good Luck!

my ramblings

Well, once again it is time for me to write about things that have happened. There has not been much that has happened. I had a concert this last friday night with the ISU Wind Ensemble. It went really well, I thought. We played pieces by Bhrams, Heinz, Ellerby, Gabrieli, and Jacobs. Each piece went very well. The Ellerby is by far my favorite. This piece is called Paris Sketches, and has four movements. My brother Gail was able to come down and attend this concert. This was the first time that he heard me play, and he was fairly surprised.

Journal Time

The last three or four weeks, have been especially difficult for me. With everything that has happened, J have really learned to put my trust and faith in the lord. I have really come to learn that if I rely on my family and my father in heaven, everything will work out for the better. Late last night, I started to watch the movie, Gods Army. I had forgotten how wonderful and spiritual that movie is, I haven't felt the spirit that strong in a long time. When I finished it this morning, while I was getting ready for school, I couldn't crying, and the spirit was so strong. This movie has really caused me to remember the my "real" father will always be there for me and will never abandon me in my times of troubles and hardships.
During the last several weeks, some really neat things have happened, but the thing that has helped the most, was that my 12 year old nephew, Britian, and I have been texting back and forth. He always seems to know exactly when I need someone to talk to. He has really been blessed with the ability to know when his aunt needs him. He is such a sweet boy, and I don't know how I could have made it through all of this without him, he has helped me such much just by talking to me and asking me how I was doing. Britian, if you read this I want you to know, how special you are, and how much I love and appreciate you and all you do.

TMJ Disorder

I was very recently diagnosed with TMJ disorder. his means the my mandibular joint (jaw)is out of place. Well, being a musician, only made the situation about ten times worse. My jaw hurts really bad every time I play my instrument, and the stress from school, playing, and emotional stress only makes the pain, a whole heck of a lot worse. I have been using the essential oils and foot zone therapy, to try and make it better, and I guess it has been helping. But I have been noticing a particular trend, every time I am around a certain professor ( Dr. Brooks) the pain on the left side seems to just get worse. I sometimes think that he likes to see how hard I can push before I crack. Let me tell you, I am really close to cracking right now. I pretty much just want to lock myself in a closet and cry, but I dont the time to do that, because I have a time of crap that I have to do for him, and this is not including all of my practice time, homework, and church responsibilities. Now that I got really far off track, if anyone who reads this has any idea about how to deal with the TMJ disorder please let me know.

The Joys and Hardships of Life

I recently have had many interesting things happen to me. Sunday it was snowing pretty bad, and I have been house sitting for a professor of mine. Well every sunday night my ward has ward prayer. I was on my way to the church for prayer, and I ran off the road. After I ran off the road I decided to turn around and go back to the house. Well part way up the hill I got stuck and couldn't go any farther, so I had to call a member of my bishop brick and he came over and helped me up the rest of the way. It continues to amaze me how much people care for me and truely want to help me and watch me succeed.

So this last week has been pretty hard, because of my roomate problems and school. Well, late thursday night there was a lot of room mate drama. There was a lot of yelling, swearing, and yes even a fight, and the police were envolved too. In the middle of the fight, I was pretty scared and was staying in my room, and I decided to pray. As I was praying, I asked that everyone that was in the apartment would calm down and be comforted. The moment that I said this the yelling stopped and everyting started to calm down. It absolutely amazes me that Heavenly Father is always there to help us, even if it is just room mate drama. I am so greateful for all of my many blessings and the fact that I have so many people that care so much for me and are so willing to help me through whatever is going on.

Testimony

As I was thinking and cleaning my room, I started to think about things that I could do that might help others. I don't have a lot of money, so I can't offer a lot, but one thing I can offer that can help everyone that reads this blog, is my testimony of the gospel. I truely know that this church is true and that our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ is at the head of this church. I know with every fiber of my being, that Jesus Christ is not only my Lord and Savior, but he is also my brother and my closest friend. He knows me better than I know myself, and he is always near me to help through. I have had many times when this has been proven to me. I know that without Jesus Christ, my family, and my friends I could not be where I am at in the church. I am grateful for the knowledge that Christ lives, and will love me and help me through all of my trials. I truely know that the Book of Mormon is the word of God and it truely testifys of Christ's visit to the ancient inhabitants of the American Continent. I know that President Thomas S Monson is a true and living prophet here on the earth today. I know that he holds and uses the priesthood, and recieves prophecy from Jesus Christ. I am grateful that I have the opportunity to live in the dispensation of the fulness of times, when all of god's laws have been returned to the earth. I am grateful for the law of eternal families, and the opportunity that I have to spend eternity with my family. I testify of these things in the sacred name of Jesus Christ, Amen.

frustrations

Okay so obviously I am really bad at writing on blogs, in journals, or anything. So to anyone that actually reads this sorry. So when it comes to blogging I don't really know what to do, so I am just going to treat it like a journal, and vent a little.I am pretty angry right now, due to the fact that my room mates are dishonest jerks. Sometimes I wonder if I am just really wierd but I would never leave WEEK old dishes for someone else to clean up, or go into someone else's room and use their stuff, it is just not honest. I hate this but I dont know what I can do about. So If anyone reads this and has any ideas let me or give me ring.