Ramblings and my Testimony

So yeah obviously I am not very good at blogging considering I have not written anything in over a year. A lot of things have changed in the last year. I am once again living at home and trying to save up some money. I have an incredible job, working for the Bannock Youth Foundation with teenagers that have substance abuse problems. This job is quite difficult, but it is also very rewarding. I am now a senior and have about two and a half semesters until I get my degree. I am preparing to do my senior recital, which is in march, and my student teaching, which is next fall. There is not much more for me to say about my life, so I guess that I will bear my testimony.
I know that my redeemer lives, I know that he loves me, and that he died on the cross so that the demands of justice would be satisfied and I can return to live with my Heavenly Father again. I know that the Church of Jesus Christ is the only true church upon the face of the Earth. I know that when Heavenly Father makes a promise, he keeps it. I am grateful for temple work, and that through the power of the priesthood, if I live righteously I can live forever with worthy family members. I look forward to the day when my mission on the earth is over and I can return to my loving Fatherr in Heaven and my Savior, the Lord, Jesus Christ. I testify of these things in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.

so I am working hard on trying to lose weight, but once again it is not working. I really wish that I had a new idea of what I can do, but alas I do. I am beginning to think that it is an impossible task.

Pass it on!

I got this off of one of my friends blogs and I love free stuff so if you do...... I thought it would be kind of fun to do. The first five people to respond to this post will get something made by me! My choice, for you. This offer does have some restrictions and limitations.
1. I make no guarantees that you will like what I make!
2. What I create will be just for you.
3. It'll will be done this year (might take a while)
4. You have no clue what it is going to be. It maybe a story. I may draw or paint something. I may bake you something and mail it to you. Who knows. Not you, that's for sure!
5. I reserve the tight to do something extremely strange.

The catch? You must repost this on your blog and offer the same to the first five people who do the same. The first five people who do so and leave a comment telling me they did win a FAB-U-LOUS homemade gift by me! I know that you all want to join so hurry fast, remember it is only the first five people to respond and then put it on your blog, if you dont' put it on your blog then you don't count!! :) Oh and be sure to post a picture of what you win when you get it! Good Luck!

my ramblings

Well, once again it is time for me to write about things that have happened. There has not been much that has happened. I had a concert this last friday night with the ISU Wind Ensemble. It went really well, I thought. We played pieces by Bhrams, Heinz, Ellerby, Gabrieli, and Jacobs. Each piece went very well. The Ellerby is by far my favorite. This piece is called Paris Sketches, and has four movements. My brother Gail was able to come down and attend this concert. This was the first time that he heard me play, and he was fairly surprised.

Journal Time

The last three or four weeks, have been especially difficult for me. With everything that has happened, J have really learned to put my trust and faith in the lord. I have really come to learn that if I rely on my family and my father in heaven, everything will work out for the better. Late last night, I started to watch the movie, Gods Army. I had forgotten how wonderful and spiritual that movie is, I haven't felt the spirit that strong in a long time. When I finished it this morning, while I was getting ready for school, I couldn't crying, and the spirit was so strong. This movie has really caused me to remember the my "real" father will always be there for me and will never abandon me in my times of troubles and hardships.
During the last several weeks, some really neat things have happened, but the thing that has helped the most, was that my 12 year old nephew, Britian, and I have been texting back and forth. He always seems to know exactly when I need someone to talk to. He has really been blessed with the ability to know when his aunt needs him. He is such a sweet boy, and I don't know how I could have made it through all of this without him, he has helped me such much just by talking to me and asking me how I was doing. Britian, if you read this I want you to know, how special you are, and how much I love and appreciate you and all you do.

TMJ Disorder

I was very recently diagnosed with TMJ disorder. his means the my mandibular joint (jaw)is out of place. Well, being a musician, only made the situation about ten times worse. My jaw hurts really bad every time I play my instrument, and the stress from school, playing, and emotional stress only makes the pain, a whole heck of a lot worse. I have been using the essential oils and foot zone therapy, to try and make it better, and I guess it has been helping. But I have been noticing a particular trend, every time I am around a certain professor ( Dr. Brooks) the pain on the left side seems to just get worse. I sometimes think that he likes to see how hard I can push before I crack. Let me tell you, I am really close to cracking right now. I pretty much just want to lock myself in a closet and cry, but I dont the time to do that, because I have a time of crap that I have to do for him, and this is not including all of my practice time, homework, and church responsibilities. Now that I got really far off track, if anyone who reads this has any idea about how to deal with the TMJ disorder please let me know.

The Joys and Hardships of Life

I recently have had many interesting things happen to me. Sunday it was snowing pretty bad, and I have been house sitting for a professor of mine. Well every sunday night my ward has ward prayer. I was on my way to the church for prayer, and I ran off the road. After I ran off the road I decided to turn around and go back to the house. Well part way up the hill I got stuck and couldn't go any farther, so I had to call a member of my bishop brick and he came over and helped me up the rest of the way. It continues to amaze me how much people care for me and truely want to help me and watch me succeed.